I am soo dead

I forgot that world asthma day is coming on 1st week of may, wala pa akong nagagawa, I am sooo dead

sad

How do you keep up when you feel like giving up?

Singit

Hehehe no hindi ito bastos! Not this time! Ang ibig ko lang naman sabihin sa singit eh yung something that gets in between, katulad nito, I'm actually finishing an important task but I can't think of anything. Ayan habang may tinatapos kumekeme nanaman ako ng blog hahaha, pag nahuli ako ng terorista YARI AKO!!!! Hahaha

Ayan as I write my entry, may sumingit nanaman sa isip ko, yung mga worries ko nag he hello nanaman sa akin, O sige na nga maghe hello na din ako hahaha, kaloka, lunes na lunes feeling ko pagod na pagod ako, sign na ba ito? sign ng....... Oh nohhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Ngayon nag hi naman sa aking nagh pending kong trabaho... ayan I'll leave na. I'll try to focus more.........

TERORISTANG AMO

Ayan nakapagpost uli ako dito,
Lately I feel so tired
ayoko na sana kaya lang ang tanga ko din nagpapigil pa ako
akala ko kasi kaya ko pa
pero ngayon ko lang narealize na di na pala
ayoko na ngang pumasok ang lunes eh
kasi bibweltahan nanaman nya ako
nalulungkot ako kasi twing kausap nya ako feeling ko ang engot ko
minsan nag-iisip ako kung naiisip nya ang epekto ng mga sinasabi nya.
Kanina habang nagdadsal di ko mapigilang umiyak, kasi naman nagawa ko na lahat ng kaya ko para magkasundo kami, unfortunately wala mali pa din ako.
Ang sabi nya sa akin dati magkaroon daw kami ng communication, pero pucha paano naman ako makikipagcommunicate eh saksakan naman ng pagka antipatika sya, lahat ng sabihin ko pota mali!
Minsan pag kinakausap nya ako gusto kontg sumigaw ng bonggang bongga at sabihin na "oo na ikaw na ang tama at ako ang tanga"
dati di ako naniniwala sa pagiging terorista ng isang amo pero ngayon pucha oo na.
Ayoko ana maging nega pero juice me grabe nag uumapaw ang kasamaan ng ugali nya kakainis.
Minsan naiisip ko kung napapakinggan ba ako ni Lord kasi ilang beses ko na syang pinagdasal kako Lord sana po marealize ni Mam na nakakasakit po sya. Na konti nalang po o bukas makalawa baka mawalan na sya ng mga empleyado.
Hayy ayoko na mamaya bebenggahin nanaman nya ako ayoko na talaga.

First!

First!

First writing for this year!
First attempt ever to get out of something!
First time to have someone said "you suck"
First time I have ever felt to say the same thing!

First time to tremble when this particular person comes in..
First time to pray sooo hard just to achieve an escape
First time to admit to myself that I am sometimes weak
First time to say all of these.

First time first ever doing this.

Before the year ends.......

Dear Dianne,

I know you are very confused now, still I am proud of you even if you are and you have been in low spirit for quite sometime, you still manage to dream and make your parents, siblings and friends happy.
I know that you have been unhappy since you met your boss, still you continue to understand and pray for her, even if she kept on bringing you down and make your day miserable, you never forgot to wish her well. you even dream of one day, one day you'll understand each other, she'll tell you of what is wrong with you in a very nice way not in a traumatic way, one day she'll say, good job! but I guess you're losing hope right now, all you can think of is escape.
I can't blame you.
It must have been hard for you not to think of your self first, you were always thinking of your family, no boys for now, you kept on concentrating your studies, not because you were after the honor, popularity and medal it's because you were too determined to find a good job after graduation.
You didn't go to the theater even if you know you loved that, you went to an office thinking you can get a higher salary and eventually, you'll be of help to your parents, unfortunately, you feel awful now. I am sorry.
And now, even if your spirit is low, you thank God that everyday there He is, still trusting you, keeping you on the road. Dianne you can still do it, if she doesn't trust you, Father will be there for you, just keep trusting yourself, you are creative and resourceful. Madami ka ng pinagdaanan, ngayon ka pa susuko?

Sincerely,
Yourself

the pictures were taken at Astoria, they have a very cozy bedroom, which i wish i had slept on, unfortunately, I did'nt bring my pajamas, the emote photo were taken by Jovy. All in all our Christmas party was awesome. masaya rin pala sila kasama!