Dear Lord,

This is a long overdue already, sorry for this late letter, I should have done this before. I just want to thank you for everything. Since I started schooling you have been so great to me, I have passed those with flying colors, without Your intervention I could have not done it. Dear Lord, you know for a fact that eversince I was little I worked so hard because my main goal was help my parents, I want them to experience traveling and leisure before its too late, they have worked so hard for us specially for me, You know that we have less resources still you permitted me to go to that expensive school. Thank you Lord for giving me a job, I know that there are alot of jobless people out there and yet here I am continously receiving your gifts and graces, yet instead of thanking you and thinking of ways how can to share them, here I am praying of what to do, confused and frustrated.
Dear Lord you know how I worked, I worked so much not because I want to get more money, I worked so much not just to protect my name but most specially I wanted to help, I get too frustrated because I have done so much and the return is too little, I am not complaining oh Lord I am just wondering where did I go wrong? Were my decisions wrong at all? There is no turning back this time. I need you oh Lord, I am so confused. Please Lord I beg you.

may katabi akong parating nakasimangot

Nakakapagtaka kung paano nakaksimangot nang matagal ang isang tao.
Sa isang katulad ko na mas pinili ang ngumiti kesa ang sumimangot at magmaktol sa di ko naman mawari kung bakit syan ganuon.
Di ba mas nakakpagod ang nakasimangot kesa ngumiti? nakakaloka itong isang ito. Panginoon ko sana naman po marealize nya na di masyadong bet sa corporate world ang parating nakasimangot at higit sa lahat di rin healthy sa mga kagrupo nya ang ginagawa nya. AMEN

Update ng isang walang maisulat

Wala nanaman akong masulat, ewan ko ba lately madami akong naiisip na isulat, pero sa twing magtatype ako ayun biglang nagfe-fade... hahaha sya nga pala may mga magagandang nangyari sa buhay ko lately, maganda in a sence na nuon ko pa itong pinangarap at pinagdasal sa Kanya, pero hindi ko akalain na bigla nalang nyang ibibigay, pero sa ibang form kumbaga-- not as exact as what I have dreamt but never the less masaya pa din ako, kasi alam ko this time machachallenge nanaman ako at pati ang malikot kong imahinasyon, may pinadala saken na link ang isa sa pinakamahusay kong kaibigan, yun yung Excuses for NOT Making Ideas Happen -- ang saklap! kasi dun sa mga nakasulat lahat yun parang batong ipunupukol sa akin-- dati akala ko malakas ang loob ko na para bang kaya kong harapin ang anumang klase ng bagay, pero simula ng makapagtrabaho ako parang laht ng lakas ng loob ko nagdeteriorate-- ang taas pala ng insecurity ko hahaha, am worrying too much mygaddd..

Ayan sandali lang akong nahinto nawala nanamn ako sa serkulasyon....
para bang minsan punong-puno ang utak ko tapos sa isang iglap nawawala nalang lalo na pag may nahahalong ibang bagay hayyyyy.

Na naman

Naiisip ko na naman sya..
Sa mga ganitong wala na akong magawa bigla na lang syang bubulaga
Nakakainis wala akong magawa
Nakakapagod na din, pero ano naman ang gagawin ko?
Pag ganitong makulimlim at parang sumisipol ang tunog ng hangin parang may kung anung bulong ang hangin sa akin
Ang daya naman!
Ako nalang ng ako

Nag-eemote nanaman ako....
Parang tanga na natatawa sa mga sinasabi ng isip ko
Pero sa totoo lang kinikilig ako sa mga munting storya na ginagawa ng malikot kong isip.

Kamusta na kaya sya?
Ano na kaya ang ginagawa nya?
Baka madaming kausap
O baka naman bugnot sya ngayon?

Hay naku naman nagpoprocess nanaman ang utak ko at nagrerevolve sa kanya....
Hay buhay... na naman....

Going back to roots

ang cute pala nung PT ng SPARC hehehe

syempre todo emote kami ng writer namin, yung dalawa naman naming kasama nagpose hayyyy

of course i wont let the day pass without trying my hoop

awww

Suddenly!

Suddenly!

Just suddenly, I have itched to write

Just at this moment I want to let out of my feeling

At this minute I just want to exhale

At this spur of the moment I want to close my eyes and just be silent

At this day I just want to be calm, relax and breathe out all my inhibitions.

yikes I sounded like am getting old ;-) but heck am sooooo tamad this Monday morning ......

I'm blessed!

I'm lucky to have parents like my parents! hahaha, wala lang i just want to share this.
As I'am doing the mtv for my boss, I wasnt expecting this, not all of my target particiapants would participate, so ayun na nga, for like yesterday it was one of the happiest day of my life I felt that it was very liberating, imagine I got to direct and talked to one of the executives here, giving them directions on how to react infront of the camera-- so to say that yesterday was really cool! kaninag umaga-- I started the shoot with one of the heartrobs here so to speak and he was very cooperative, then shoot to Customer service and and then another team head and poof my asst manager texted me and told me I had to go down now as he was expecting me at that very moment, coming from 18th floor I wanna fly from this floor and go now to the 6th which he currnetly resides.

So i was there--- spoke with his secretary and introduced myself properly, the secretary told me that he was talking with someone and ask me if its ok to wait-- and ofcourse it was really ok --- as I was just asking a favor.
so I wait
I waited
then I waited
then I had to go to the loo as I was about to pea
then I waited again
then finally, he hangs up the phone!!
Mabuhay!!
ayun!!


The secretary knocked at his door and told him that I'm already waiting for him.
To my surprise, he didnt even let me finish to what I'm going to say, he just called me and then told me "Something came up, I'm not in the mood to do that, I'm not going to that shoot".
Flabbergasted.
my mouth just opened and uttered few words " ah ok, maraming salamat!" then walked away.

As I was riding the elevator I whispered a prayer thanking God that my parents taught me right manners, they taught me how to speak to people, even if I'm not in the good mood, they taight me very well how to handle situations that are very difficult to deal with. Thank God my parents reiterated to me that no matter how I hated a person or people I need to respect them and speak to them nicely.

Thank you Lord Iam sooo blessed.