:-( part 2

I did not attend my job interview today!
Why? What the hell was I up to?

I don't know, all I know is that my mom was a bit disappointed when she learned that I was scheduled for an interview today.... she didn't talk to me the entire night....
I cried the entire night because I feel that the space around me is becoming smaller and smaller that I can't breathe anymore.

I was praying to God last night because I feel that I can't do this anymore, I feel that I am very weak.

Sometimes I wonder who I am, where should I go?

It pains me......