2 days before christmas
all alone hre in the office doing petiks hahahaha and emoting......
I finally realize that this season shoud be celebrated more than gift giving.. its about our Lord
I finally realize that I have to think atleast three times and reflect before I speak and decide
I finally realize that I have to take care of myself and my parents too
I finally realize that I need to be humble
I finally realize that I have to learn more by means of studying
I finally realize that I have to go out more with friends
I finally realize that I have to treat myself often
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
turning point
Its really hard to accept something, specially when your mind is withrawing the idea of it.
Shit am running out of words, my emotions tend to explode again.
I cant understand why my heart beats like this, its as if it wants to get out of my chest.
My mind is processing millions of words that i'm unable to write....
hayyyyyyy i have to end this, i might get somewhere scary if i'll pull through with this...
Oh God help me please....please
Shit am running out of words, my emotions tend to explode again.
I cant understand why my heart beats like this, its as if it wants to get out of my chest.
My mind is processing millions of words that i'm unable to write....
hayyyyyyy i have to end this, i might get somewhere scary if i'll pull through with this...
Oh God help me please....please
Friday, December 11, 2009
hayyyy
shocks, Eto na nga ba ang sinasabi ko
I'll end up doing the something I promised not to do...
I've searched for his name again... ayoko na sana kaya lang
Feeling ko namimiss ko sya...
Maybe Abby was right it just a matter of acceptance that you will never forget him.
Kahit yata patuwad akong matulog sa gabi eh sya pa rin ang maalala ko,
ang malala nyan sya rin ang nasa isip ko at lihim na dinadsal na sana mapanaginipan ko sya
Kahit na horror pa yan o suspense...
Nakakatawa kahit ako natatawa ako sa mga inimagine ko hayyyyy
I'll end up doing the something I promised not to do...
I've searched for his name again... ayoko na sana kaya lang
Feeling ko namimiss ko sya...
Maybe Abby was right it just a matter of acceptance that you will never forget him.
Kahit yata patuwad akong matulog sa gabi eh sya pa rin ang maalala ko,
ang malala nyan sya rin ang nasa isip ko at lihim na dinadsal na sana mapanaginipan ko sya
Kahit na horror pa yan o suspense...
Nakakatawa kahit ako natatawa ako sa mga inimagine ko hayyyyy
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Last Saturday Dominic visited me sa house, He was complaining how he he was being trnsferred from the current position he was holding, he said it was really abrupt, he was about to say no but appently he said he couldnt, that why he came to my place he was urging me to teach him how to make some paper works hahahha meaning how to use the excel and powerpoint.
hay he was the same Dominic I met way for about some 4 years ago if my math is right hihihi he still the same guy or girl or whatever whose always making kulit to me because of something, but never the less he never forget to say Thank you.
I remember when we where in college and the hit of Koreanovela just knocked us out, well basically its because this new approach on acting and ofcourse the bidas there is really cute and for us in our barkada who were hopeless romantic, It was so easy for us to relate, and there was Nico who was like a google that updates us immediately and not to mention drag us to Divi Mall where we can buy or purchase this complete set of the show. I remember our ritual every Sunday, after NSTP we'd go for Quiapo to eat and roam around hihihi.
How I miss those pals. I wish I could turn the time back.
Miss you Nico,Abby, Xhy, Xielle, Len, Ann
hay he was the same Dominic I met way for about some 4 years ago if my math is right hihihi he still the same guy or girl or whatever whose always making kulit to me because of something, but never the less he never forget to say Thank you.
I remember when we where in college and the hit of Koreanovela just knocked us out, well basically its because this new approach on acting and ofcourse the bidas there is really cute and for us in our barkada who were hopeless romantic, It was so easy for us to relate, and there was Nico who was like a google that updates us immediately and not to mention drag us to Divi Mall where we can buy or purchase this complete set of the show. I remember our ritual every Sunday, after NSTP we'd go for Quiapo to eat and roam around hihihi.
How I miss those pals. I wish I could turn the time back.
Miss you Nico,Abby, Xhy, Xielle, Len, Ann
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Last night while on the bus I remembered that I have a packaged waiting coming from my Pa, it was the rubber shoes that I have been waiting for quite some time, upon remembering this I got so excited that I almost want to ask the driver of the bus to go faster, ofcourse i coudnt do that and never will I. Upon arriving in our house my sister excitedly embraced me and said that the shoes were really good, and yup she was really right, It was even great, I texted my father immediately to say my thankyou and congratulate him because he evolved already from being baduy to fashionista, so there, i'm planning where and when.
So i thought it would be a very good night......
Did I mention that I have a reflux? I was told by my physician to lessen the sweets specially chocolates as it contributes largely to the production of mucus making me cough more. so its what I did I lessen it and as much as possible I stayed away from it.
Unluckily it was one of the packages that was sent by Papa so after dinner everybody was waiting for the sweets as panghimagas, everyone knew my health situation. I said to my mom "pahingi ako nyan bukas ah isa lang titikman ko lang" i was really surprised to their reaction, talagang ayaw magbigay ng mga hitad my mom said No immmediately and said na bawal followed by loud voices from my Ninang and my sister. As always i immediately felt pikon I was really pissed off, they could have said it on a nicer way and besides my doctor told me taht i was never bawal on those kinds of food i just have to lessen it. i really felt bad. hayy
So i thought it would be a very good night......
Did I mention that I have a reflux? I was told by my physician to lessen the sweets specially chocolates as it contributes largely to the production of mucus making me cough more. so its what I did I lessen it and as much as possible I stayed away from it.
Unluckily it was one of the packages that was sent by Papa so after dinner everybody was waiting for the sweets as panghimagas, everyone knew my health situation. I said to my mom "pahingi ako nyan bukas ah isa lang titikman ko lang" i was really surprised to their reaction, talagang ayaw magbigay ng mga hitad my mom said No immmediately and said na bawal followed by loud voices from my Ninang and my sister. As always i immediately felt pikon I was really pissed off, they could have said it on a nicer way and besides my doctor told me taht i was never bawal on those kinds of food i just have to lessen it. i really felt bad. hayy
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
deppressed and weary
My eyes hurts again, sumasakit nanamna sya malamang kakabasa ko ng blog ni John Lapus, nakakaaliw yung baklang yun, nakakatuwa kasi hindi nya kinahiya yung pinanggalingan nya. Kahit na mahirap lang sila eh talagang nagpunyagi sya.
Pag gising ko kanina pa lang umaga mabigat na pakiramdam ko, hindi dahil sa puyat dahil kagabi naglamay kami sa tito ko he died because of stroke, he one of the closest cousins ng papa. Kasi nung pag gising ko naalala ko ang liit ng sahod ko, nalungkot ako mas maliit pa ito kaysa sa kinikita ko dati, hindi ko tuloy maibili manlang ang sarili ko ng gamit, naaawa ako sa sarili ko ngayon naturingang may pinag aralan pero heto nag titiis sa ganitong trabaho.
Hindi ko pwedeng i-deny o itago sa sarili ko ang mga desisyon ko na sana pinag isipan ko ng husto katulad ng:
-sana hindi ako nagpadalos dalos
- ano kaya kung andoon pa ko?
-sana yung OT ko may malaking bayad
- sana may mga libre akong tickets ngayon
- sana may cellphone akong bago
- sana parati akong nakakagimik
hay ...oo may mga bagay akong pinagsisihan ngayon pero ang pinakaimportante ay ang humanap ng solusyon. Oo hahanap ako ng solusyon sa problema ko, may awa naman ang Dyos at higit sa lahat may tiwala ako kanya.
Pag gising ko kanina pa lang umaga mabigat na pakiramdam ko, hindi dahil sa puyat dahil kagabi naglamay kami sa tito ko he died because of stroke, he one of the closest cousins ng papa. Kasi nung pag gising ko naalala ko ang liit ng sahod ko, nalungkot ako mas maliit pa ito kaysa sa kinikita ko dati, hindi ko tuloy maibili manlang ang sarili ko ng gamit, naaawa ako sa sarili ko ngayon naturingang may pinag aralan pero heto nag titiis sa ganitong trabaho.
Hindi ko pwedeng i-deny o itago sa sarili ko ang mga desisyon ko na sana pinag isipan ko ng husto katulad ng:
-sana hindi ako nagpadalos dalos
- ano kaya kung andoon pa ko?
-sana yung OT ko may malaking bayad
- sana may mga libre akong tickets ngayon
- sana may cellphone akong bago
- sana parati akong nakakagimik
hay ...oo may mga bagay akong pinagsisihan ngayon pero ang pinakaimportante ay ang humanap ng solusyon. Oo hahanap ako ng solusyon sa problema ko, may awa naman ang Dyos at higit sa lahat may tiwala ako kanya.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Early christmas gift from God
Yey, 24 days to go and its christmas!!
I think i got my early christmas gift from God
After months of excruciating cough I finally realized why I'm having dry coughs
with a help from our family doctor I realized its because of a bath soap,
I've been using this bath soap eversince and never thought that it would trigger my allergies and to think its a babysoap.
well I wont argue and waste my time why in the 22 years of my life of having been using this soap just emerge my allergens. I am just thankful that I have discovered that.
I think i got my early christmas gift from God
After months of excruciating cough I finally realized why I'm having dry coughs
with a help from our family doctor I realized its because of a bath soap,
I've been using this bath soap eversince and never thought that it would trigger my allergies and to think its a babysoap.
well I wont argue and waste my time why in the 22 years of my life of having been using this soap just emerge my allergens. I am just thankful that I have discovered that.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
nakakaumay
Nakakaumay bumyahe
Nakakaumay Gumising ng maaga
Nakakaumay mag-antay ng bus
Nakakaumay pumila para sumakay ng jeep
Nakakaumay tumingin ng mga emails
Nakakaumay humawak ng mga papel
Nakakaumay magtrabaho
Nakakaumay magsearch ng mga prospect na mga cute.
Nakakaumay makibalita sa mga kaibigan mong ang tagal mo ng hindi nakikita.
Argh ayoko na nauumay na rin ako kakasulat ng mga ganito.
Nakakaumay Gumising ng maaga
Nakakaumay mag-antay ng bus
Nakakaumay pumila para sumakay ng jeep
Nakakaumay tumingin ng mga emails
Nakakaumay humawak ng mga papel
Nakakaumay magtrabaho
Nakakaumay magsearch ng mga prospect na mga cute.
Nakakaumay makibalita sa mga kaibigan mong ang tagal mo ng hindi nakikita.
Argh ayoko na nauumay na rin ako kakasulat ng mga ganito.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
he's everywhere
When I look on the other side I see him;
When I look at the back I still see him.
When I close my eyes and fell asleep I dream of him;
when I wake up the following morning I feel him.
I'am hopelessly falling for him.
When I look at the back I still see him.
When I close my eyes and fell asleep I dream of him;
when I wake up the following morning I feel him.
I'am hopelessly falling for him.
idonthaveatitleonit
Note: This is a long overdue already but for the sake of being ahem "first timer" here let me post this:
May 26, 2009
Bakit kaya gnun? Bakit kahit anung pilit mung kalimutan ang isang tao may oras talaga na hindi mo matiis sya at parang pag nakita mo sya sa oras na ‘to parang yun na ang katuparan ng hiling mo?
Nakakatawang isipin na pagkatapos ng lahat sya pa rin ang laman ng tumitibok mong puso, ilang taon ko na bang nasabi sa sarili ko na ayoko na, pero sa huli ang salitang “ayoko” ay nagiging baliktad, taliwas sa mga sinabi ko sa sarili, tapos ito nanaman, ako nanaman ang talo. Napapagod na ako. Oo pagod na sa ganitong paulit-ulit na cycle pero ano ba ang laban ng isang ordinaryong tao na katulad ko sa mga ganitong problema.
Sabi nila kalimutan mo na sya, ginawa ko namam ah, yun nga lang panadalian nga lang, bakit ba kasi ganun? Hindi ba pwedeng pag nagkagusto ka isang tao at pareho kayong libre eh pwede kayong dalawa nalang?? Hay malamang kung naging ganito ang rule, malamang eh lahat ng tao eh couple walang single, Oh diba mas masaya yun, pero syempre hindi pwede, hindi mo naman mamagic ang mga taong katulad ko at katulad ng lahat.
Hayyy kelan ba ako titigil sa pag sisintimyento sa mga naararamdaman ko, minsan iniisip ko ano ba ang nararamdaman ng mga taong apathetic o mga taong walang pakialam sa paligid nila, malamang wala, hindi dahil manhid sila physically pero pinili nilang maging manhid at wag ng makisawsaw sa mga problema, pero juice ko hindi ko naman kayang gawin yun, habang humuhinga ako, palagay ko magiging forever akong pakialamera, siguro masarap maging apathetic din minsan, kasi atleast pag wala kang pakialam sa mga bagay at tao malamang hindi ka maiinlove, ang saklap nun, pero on the other hand maganda rin kasi malamang hindi ako mag aaksaya ngayon ng kuryente kakasulat ng kung anu-ano para lang mailabas ko yung nararamdaman ko.
Pero alam ko din naman yung kahihinatnan nito, malamang sa huli talo nanaman ako, sino ba kasi ang nagpauso ng fairytale? Wala naman kasing ganun, ayan tuloy hanggang ngayon nangangarap pa din ako na may prinsipeng dadating. Kakainis sa susunod nga hindi na ako manunuod ng mga chick flicks lalo lang akong nagiging ilusyunada.
Ang sarap kasing mangarap, masarap mangarap kasi atleast dun you’ll find your tranquility pero ano naman ang silbi nun kung hanggang pangarap nalang yun? Diba para naman akong patay na nun, forever tulog dahil malamang dun ko lang mararanasan ang mga bagay na inaasam ko.
Hayyy…..malamang sa susunod uulitin ko nanaman itong sintimyento kong ito, dahil tao lang ako, taong mahilig mangialam, taong mahilig magmahal.
May 26, 2009
Bakit kaya gnun? Bakit kahit anung pilit mung kalimutan ang isang tao may oras talaga na hindi mo matiis sya at parang pag nakita mo sya sa oras na ‘to parang yun na ang katuparan ng hiling mo?
Nakakatawang isipin na pagkatapos ng lahat sya pa rin ang laman ng tumitibok mong puso, ilang taon ko na bang nasabi sa sarili ko na ayoko na, pero sa huli ang salitang “ayoko” ay nagiging baliktad, taliwas sa mga sinabi ko sa sarili, tapos ito nanaman, ako nanaman ang talo. Napapagod na ako. Oo pagod na sa ganitong paulit-ulit na cycle pero ano ba ang laban ng isang ordinaryong tao na katulad ko sa mga ganitong problema.
Sabi nila kalimutan mo na sya, ginawa ko namam ah, yun nga lang panadalian nga lang, bakit ba kasi ganun? Hindi ba pwedeng pag nagkagusto ka isang tao at pareho kayong libre eh pwede kayong dalawa nalang?? Hay malamang kung naging ganito ang rule, malamang eh lahat ng tao eh couple walang single, Oh diba mas masaya yun, pero syempre hindi pwede, hindi mo naman mamagic ang mga taong katulad ko at katulad ng lahat.
Hayyy kelan ba ako titigil sa pag sisintimyento sa mga naararamdaman ko, minsan iniisip ko ano ba ang nararamdaman ng mga taong apathetic o mga taong walang pakialam sa paligid nila, malamang wala, hindi dahil manhid sila physically pero pinili nilang maging manhid at wag ng makisawsaw sa mga problema, pero juice ko hindi ko naman kayang gawin yun, habang humuhinga ako, palagay ko magiging forever akong pakialamera, siguro masarap maging apathetic din minsan, kasi atleast pag wala kang pakialam sa mga bagay at tao malamang hindi ka maiinlove, ang saklap nun, pero on the other hand maganda rin kasi malamang hindi ako mag aaksaya ngayon ng kuryente kakasulat ng kung anu-ano para lang mailabas ko yung nararamdaman ko.
Pero alam ko din naman yung kahihinatnan nito, malamang sa huli talo nanaman ako, sino ba kasi ang nagpauso ng fairytale? Wala naman kasing ganun, ayan tuloy hanggang ngayon nangangarap pa din ako na may prinsipeng dadating. Kakainis sa susunod nga hindi na ako manunuod ng mga chick flicks lalo lang akong nagiging ilusyunada.
Ang sarap kasing mangarap, masarap mangarap kasi atleast dun you’ll find your tranquility pero ano naman ang silbi nun kung hanggang pangarap nalang yun? Diba para naman akong patay na nun, forever tulog dahil malamang dun ko lang mararanasan ang mga bagay na inaasam ko.
Hayyy…..malamang sa susunod uulitin ko nanaman itong sintimyento kong ito, dahil tao lang ako, taong mahilig mangialam, taong mahilig magmahal.
Bitter
It’s funny how people praise themselves just to get their point straight ahead… hehee I felt she does that do impose that she is indeed need to be treasured and taken cared of, pretty? yes but the word beautiful would suit her much better, however we should always bear in mind that being humble puts us in a higher level of beauty without even trying hard. As what they would always say inner beauty is more important than physical beauty, as the latter would fade soon.
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